The mystic sees every person as filled
with rose petals. The mystic
seeks to be harmless toward all persons, so as not to bruise
a single petal within their Being. Likewise, the mystic sees
the path before him or her as covered with rose petals. The mystic seeks to walk
through the world so harmlessly that not one petal is bruised
by his or her passing.
Once, a close friend, whom I love
very much, told me I had done something that hurt her feelings.
I was totally shocked because my intention had been to support
her. I felt badly that my actions had harmed, rather than helped,
her. I realized then that I needed to change some of my attitudes
and behaviors in order to avoid hurting those close to me. I
want to live harmlessly, so as not to bruise a single rose petal
within myself or another.
My work started with altering my internal
voice. I stopped finding fault in others and making judgmental
and critical comments such as, "You should ..." or
"You shouldn't ..." At first I simply stopped saying
them, but then I recognized that even though I no longer verbalized
my thoughts, they were still harmful. I realized that I was unconsciously
repeating my mother's negative pattern of looking at another
with judgment in her mind. If she doubted the other person, without
speaking a word, her face told them, "I don't believe you."
I knew firsthand how people can sometimes sense rejecting, harmful
energy, and be hurt by it. It was time to bring my way of relating
to others into my Consciousness,
and thereby change it.
Another area I resolved to change was my habit
of gossiping. I realized another way I was unintentionally hurting
others was by not honoring their confidentiality. I was seeking
their trust to satisfy my ego, then bartering this information
with others for a sense of power and importance. Now I Consciously
think before I speak: "Is it really necessary to share this
information?" "Am I betraying a friend's trust?"
"Is this my story to tell?" I realize that an important
part of loving and respecting a friend is to honor his or her
Honoring my friends led to me realize that
I needed to alter my behavior in intimate relationships, too.
I knew I needed to change my unconscious, blind love into a more
respectful, harmless, Conscious Love.
When I was younger, I "played games" with men, unconsciously
believing that this was the way to love. When I first met a man,
I would do what I could to please him. This made me feel wanted
and attractive. After the man was hooked, I unconsciously changed.
I became cold and remote, so as to make him want me even more.
In my selfishness, I thought I was being open and loving, when
in fact I was hurting both my lover and myself.
Pain is contagious. When I feel pain in my
Heart, it is easily
readable on my face. People around me sense, feel, and see my
pain. Joy is contagious
too. In my daily life I choose "Being lovingly present no
matter what it looks like out there, or inside myself."
This is a Conscious choice I make for the rest of my life. My
Joy is a gift that
I share with others.
I now realize that the people who come into
my life are like beautiful roses. They cover my life's path with
rose petals. I walk along my path very gently, because I cannot
bear the pain I bring to myself or another if I bruise a single
rose petal. My Soul
teaches me about harmlessness. It is part of my Awakening.